This appointment was kinda crazy… don’t worry it was great.  Baby girl is just fine weighing in at 2 lbs 11 oz, which is completely average.   She’s not too big and not too small!   Oh and she has hair already, so they said she could come out with lots of hair!  It was so fun to see her on the ultrasound again, and I can’t wait to show my parents all the pictures next week.   We even got a shot of her little feet!    I know, I totally want to put the pics on here, but let’s be real, the ultra sound pics look crazy!  No one loves those pics like a mom and dad do, so I will spare you haha.

We were filled with joy, already sharing the pics with family and friends.   Oh when you are 28 weeks pregnant, the mood can change so quickly….

So at our last appointment the said that the baby/my belly was measuring a little big, so they ordered the extra ultrasound to check her size.   So today when the dr told us she is 100% and right on track she said there are two things that could be causing you to measure big….  Reason 1, you might just be carrying her more in the front…. some women carry more in the back so their stomach’s are smaller.   OR……………………………(I totally knew what was coming………….I could feel embarrassment creeping in)   Dr. says “So how much weight have you gained so far?.”    I could hear myself gulp, the day I was dreading at every appointment had come.    Yep, that’s where this appointment was heading.    She then went on to talk to my about my diet and asked what I was eating and so on.   I have never been so embarrassed to tell someone I had apple jacks for breakfast.    Yes, I was mortified, because I have been an athlete all my life I already KNOW how to eat.   Dang it, why couldn’t she ask me last week when I was eating my granola for breakfast….oh all the things that were flying through my mind!   I was living my worst nightmare….. a dr talking to me about weight…. ME….  a very health conscious, athletic lifestyle person.   ugh………..

My husband was adorable and supportive and even spoke up about how we know how to eat.    He didn’t skip a beat.

So I went back to the waiting room  to wait for one more shot, and I distracted myself to fight back the tears.    All I could think about is my friends who have kids telling me how I was already so active, doing more than they dreamed of doing pregnant.   I wanted to justify myself, or maybe live in a world of denial that eating carbs all day is ok.

So after processing this all day, I’m feeling better and this is what I realized.

First off….. she’s correct, a reality check never hurts anyone, and that is OK.

Second…. this dr does not really know me.   We go to an office where we see a different doctor every time; she’s actually one of my favorites and still is.    This is not her fault!  I can’t get upset about her doing her job.    But what I’m getting at is, she does not KNOW me.   I knew exactly how much weight I have gained, heck, I think about it every single day.   She doesn’t know that I have always been an athlete, that I have always had the ability to maintain my weight (with in reason you know a pant size or two).  She doesn’t know that part of the reason I can enjoy eating foods that I should not eat is because I have always been able to burn it off…atleast pre-pregnancy I could.    She does not know that I already have runners envy and all I can think about is getting back in shape.    These are things that only my friends and family know….. you know like I only eat 1 donut when really I wanted 3….   LOL….  dang those donut cravings!

Oh and on a good note, my back, and round ligament pain is SOOOO much better since visiting the chiropractor, thanks to all the moms out there for the advise!

So I will continue doing what I can, I will get in my 30 minute walks, or swims, and I think I might try to change my breakfast habits….even though cereal is all I seem to want…..I guess it won’t kill me to eat an egg in the morning every now and then.    As I wait patiently for our precious baby girl to arrive I will continue to dream about the day I can finally do a sit up again, and get my running shoes back on.   Oh, and I really miss salads, but for some reason salads are gross pregnant.   Hopefully they taste good again one day!

If me being chubby means her being healthy then I’m ok with that.

Thanks so my love bug Erin Daniel Photography for taking these pics at our shoot out recently.   

And the lovely Holly at Shutterly Sweet for these!