I can’t believe just a year ago I was announcing that I was going to be leaving my job as an art teacher.   I wrote this open letter post on the blog.  I remember the bittersweet anxiety, excitement, and fear like it was yesterday.

So much has happened in a year in business and in life!   We have baby Maddison who is two months old tomorrow and business is so busy that I have taken on help…(so crazy right).  I was always afraid to outsource because I felt like I couldn’t afford it, probably the most common reason people don’t… well I saw the opportunity and I leaped (as usual lol) and let me tell you…it is a huge relief.   I’m still working on the balance everyday, especially with a newborn….but we are making it work.

The timing is actually pretty crazy….   because it’s almost exactly a year later that I just got keys to an amazing workspace with a studio and office space.  Well…. we are in the process of making it amazing lets just say that.

I’m excited to have a place to work outside the home for a lot of reasons.   Working from home is great, wearing sweats, doing things on my own time.  BUT there is also a huge stress that weighs on my heart constantly.  Because I’m home I feel pressure and guilt to clean the house, do chores, maintain things around the house, when really I should be working.   I should be dedicating my “hours” to work just like anyone else.  But looking the other direction when there is a big mess is VERY difficult some days.   I hate that my husband comes home to a messy house when I have been here all day. I feel like a failure when I can’t do it all.  My office is often in shambles because I’m working in small increments of time.   I NEVER left my desk at school a mess!  There is just something different about going to work.  I think it will be good for my soul.   Not to mention I can finally have a place to host bridal consults, workshops, mentoring, etc.   So many fun things to come!

In the mean time, while we are setting up our little spot, Heidi Calma and I are enjoying this moment, the excitement and fear of it all.   Very similar to what I felt a year ago.   Taking a big leap, a very calculated risk, but most of all… the pure JOY of following my heart!

Don’t call it a DREAM, call it a PLAN.